How do I find healing when I don’t have assurance my child is in heaven?
How do I find healing when I don't have the assurance that my child is in Heaven?
Honestly I don't have any words that completely fix this. Here's what I do know and hope you can rest in and find some peace in.
The truth is you and I can never know what is in anyone's heart. And so our comfort about anyone's destiny beyond this life must rest in the character of God, which we do know. In Genesis 18:25 the rhetorical question is asked: "Shall not the Judge of all the earth do what is just?" We have to answer, "yes he will." He will do right by me and you. He will do right by our children. We can rest in knowing he will do right.
Secondly, think about the first time God revealed anything about his personal nature—when he allowed Moses to catch a glimpse of his glory. We read: "The Lord passed before him and proclaimed, "The Lord, the Lord, a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness" (Exodus 34:6). The first thing God wants us to know about him is that he is merciful. He loves to show mercy. That's who he is, the essence of who he is.
My sister, let the goodness of God and the wideness of his mercy give you peace. Choose to rest in it and refuse to listen to all of the voices from the enemy of your soul who wants to keep you miserable.